Today I'm feeling unhappy I feel like this world getting small It make me can't breath Sometimes I've been thinking if I make a stupid decision Like runaway from home Stay at stranger place with stranger people You know this life we have only one life People who rich will travel all over the world and tell the same story with the same situation People who poor will think the past and regret the future like me, I can think about the fucking future but never regret about the past Yes, sometimes I wish I can turn back everything You know turn back start from we childhood and start that day we promise to our self that we not gonna be that way Be good boy/girl even become useful person not useless ! Get A+ in exam and admitted to the university How it will be the best day of our life but it not gonna be happen Just be yourself even you are useless person !
Suasana Istana Vamprenacht tidak pernah berubah. Setiap sudut ada sahaja
bunyi, termasuk vampire berlatih menggunakan pedang mahupun kuasa
masing-masing. Joanna keluar dari bilik air selepas hampir dua jam berendam.
Itulah salah satu cara dia menghilangkan tekanan. Walaupun sudah hampir
seminggu kejadian tersebut berlaku namun bayangan terhadap kejadian tempoh hari
masih berligar di fikirannya. Dia hanya mengenakan t-shirt dan seluar jeans
biru tua. Mengikat rambutnya yang hanya paras bahu. Setelah siap, Joanna keluar
daripada biliknya. Dilihat Xavier berada di luar biliknya.
“Xavier?"
"Good
morning princess. Today is my duty to take care of you".
Sometimes I wish I wasn't exist I can't even control myself My friends just text me, why I put off my semester to next year ? I said coz I have mental problem I can't continue I can't catch up I don't want their sad or give burden to take care of me I'm just shit girl Why still have breath in my body? To who I should live? No one no one !!!!! I just want he at here Comfort me I really need him, right now I ... I just can't forget you Can you come here Really here not near Please ? I know it won't be happen He already have "beautiful" life I don't want disturb him anymore No more !
Do you ever feel stress ? Everyone stress right but if your stress already out of control ? All you feel is you want dead Nothing else but only dead Then when every ask "what's wrong" you just shake your head and said "nothing" but when you turn around you said "everything!" That's what I feel No one understand me No one care about me If true what other people said I'm lucky have family like this I think their blind One more word, I can kill myself I try over and over again but nothing's work Today I put off my semester to next year Mean I'm not gonna be with my old friends It sux seriously but I have horrible stress problem I can't study anymore My head it's too hurt :(
Do you already heard song Blue from Big Bang ? No ?? Why you not yet It was awesome song No is daebak !!! hahaha You know I don't really care about K-POP because to me it's all korean song and I'm sure I can't sing their song but after heard Alone by CN Blue I'm become their fans even I have to sing while read their lyric but I know their song full of melody Like Blue by Big Bang I have one or two song in my phone but after this song come out I've become addicted I don't know why
I love to see TOP god he handsome <3<3<3<3 hahaha I'm completely already crazy !! before this Sum 41 then Avril Lavigne after that Tokio Hotel and then We Are The In Crowd now Big Bang !! daebak !!! This is the lyric and MV Blue ;)
Gyeouri
gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo
Geurium soge mami meongdeureotjyo
(i’m
singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i’m singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh
I don't know whether it good or not but I hope you enjoy :)
Verse 1 It’s so hard everything look so numb It’s feel like time bomb getting to action Motion that make me move all this way into every pieces of dust Reality that I hold myself fading every time I turn back Hold in a second when I know you try take step away from me
Chorus So I’ll make a move enough to know I’m living well At least I’m hiding perfectly from hell you brought it The true I’m don’t want comeback down from this feeling Can’t stay every time you make it hard as hard we can control it So open your eyes this is gone, I’m not comeback this time This melodies getting to sting
Verse2 From the day is day without any boundaries You come and gone like road to rivulet Another sad story you make out with thousands of liar I guess you can’t stay on your knee when you know you can’t control it anymore Tattoo your hands with hard conversation
Bridge You crush my heart and let my hands go Pull me out of records, put distant of you and me But this is just stupid cupid with trilogy scene No drama action
last nite I cut my hands I don't know, I feel little bit okay after cutting My head like want to explode I don't know to who I should complain my heart very very tired My tears already dry but after I'm see my niece picture my heart melt like snow My niece picture comfort my heart At the same time I'm crying because I'm miss my niece so much beside I'm fight with my friends and isn't sound good Isn't good seriously
I have biggest issue now My ego is too high My emotional is too high I feel like want to kill myself I'll always sing the sad song and the sad song make me feel horrible I feel like wanna stay in one place just myself and think back what I've done lately I know is feel hard because nobody understand me Nobody !! Even my family never understand me I'm just useless daughter I hate myself !! Really hate myself !!
“Dear
diary, last two weeks was bad week. Almost lost my best friends and lost the
guy that told my brother he likes me. I don’t know why he likes me but I think
I like him too. Alicia, she was bad vampire, always disturbed my sister. I
can’t get it why she do like that, why must her? Why she not disturbed my life
even she knows she was vampire. Hahaha, maybe I’m already crazy. Even I told my
housemate about them, their just can’t believe it. To them my brother and my
sister are just lie to me but sometimes what their say make sense. Sometimes
I’m asking why my brother never let my sister give his picture? Are because he
really same like my ex-boyfriends? Wait, turn to my ex-boyfriends, are he
really him?? Or someone that pretend to become the guy that I like?? ” continue reading here :)
This what I want talking about today Do you ever have friends ? Of coz everyone have rite what about best friends ? You know, there is different between friends and bestfriends There's a lot Friends meaning you and your friends together talk, chat about something important but bestfriends is talk about something useless even your bestfriends already said it for 100 times we never felt boring That meaning of bestfriends If friends we said something about it few times, their must feel bored I have one bestfriends We already friends for 1 years Yes, it's long but I already take her as my sister Even my future "sister-in-law" What I see in her, she never bored with me yes I have bad habit like I was always complain something isn't important but she never ignore me even I have bad attitude I was stubborn girl, seriously even my mom can't control me I never had such a good bestfriends like that She understand me That why I swear I can said that I love her so much I will do anything to make her feel okay I love you so much ...
This new lyric I write It already recover for few times but I think this is done .
Verse 1
I started around the corner
Right and left there’s nothing leave here
It’s time to be serious, everything seem curious
Be with me inside both of two world
Chorus
So we jump and dancing likes we own this place
It keep hit the light like supernova underground
Just push yourself likes there’s no tomorrow
One night only we need you
Run faster as you want because street stalking
to you
Let it go and do the right that you believe
Just push yourself and make it better
One night only we need this goddamn town
Verse 2
Believe yourself when it’s all goes down
Don’t need high dream to release yourself
Every step that you left it behind
It will be the greatest thing that no one can do
Bridge
You got one night only
It alive and born again and again
Yeah you got one night only
You should keep it louder
Yeah
One night only we need you
One night only we need this goddamn town
Just push yourself likes there’s no
tomorrow
Just push yourself and make it better
Today is 2nd of July the new of month tomorrow is 10 month 3 weeks after I broke up with my ex-boyfriends I don't know why I should count it I don't know why I have to think about it it was the horrible day of my life because of him, I lost my life but I love the way he call me "Sweetheart" hmm .. God !! why I have to think about that bull head ?! I can't think him like that seriously I should forget about him He not gonna comeback anymore I have to find someone before that day I have too
You see that big smile ?? That's what I feel today finally amortized revenge !! hahahaha I'm so happy Italy lose last nite it was the best happy day ever you see Mario face, full of burden after Spain score 2-0 on first match that what you get because kick my favourite team Germany ! take that nigga !! XDXDXD Fernado Torres got golden shoes with 3 goal in Euro 2012 but I've been thinking if nice see Germany win the trophy and the medal I'm sure I'm more happy Anyway congrats to Spain ! Viva Espana !!
I love black but it doesn't mean I'm black metal I'm quite like emo girl just I don't have hair like emo girl It nice have hair like them sometimes I wish I was perfect even have one guy who love me sometimes I wish I was rich even got Blackberry and messenger with my bestfriends sometimes I wish I was smart even got all A in my exam sometimes I wish I was like other teenagers even have nice room with my own bed sometimes I wish you were here even can feel what I feel but I'm not perfect even I don't have a lot of money All I have is one good friends My lovely brother and one big family I never wanted anything but if I got one wish I wish is all turn back like airplane in the night sky like shooting star I will make a wish even it just airplane
