I'm Still Wonder

last nite I cut my hands
I don't know, I feel little bit okay after cutting
My head like want to explode
I don't know to who I should complain
my heart very very tired
My tears already dry
but after I'm see my niece picture my heart melt like snow
My niece picture comfort my heart
At the same time I'm crying because I'm miss my niece so much
beside I'm fight with my friends and isn't sound good
Isn't good seriously

I have biggest issue now
My ego is too high
My emotional is too high
I feel like want to kill myself
I'll always sing the sad song
and the sad song make me feel horrible
I feel like wanna stay in one place just myself and think back what I've done lately
I know is feel hard because nobody understand me
Nobody !!
Even my family never understand me
I'm just useless daughter
I hate myself !!
Really hate myself !!