Quotes #1

Don't ever get back together

assalamualaikum,

yesterday, my cousin get married
last week my sister was engaged
and next week my aunty will make birthday party for her daughter
meaning, the whole week i'm busy!
damn, does have time to update my blog

so i heard justin bieber back with selena gomez back
but split again?
then back again?
hey! what the hell!
which one is true??
or you both just want make a new story because bored paparazzi only write a love letter bout you?
if true, i'm will said
FUCK YEAH

ohh talk about AMA [American Music Awards]

taylor swift dress was awesome!
she look gorgeous, beautiful
i heard RED album sold more than million copy and she win "The Favorite Country Female Artist"
CONGRATS tayswift
ke$ha was gorgeous too just no glitter brought on red carpet
just like what she said
Let's make the most of the night like we're gonna die young

:P

Another year to face

assalamualaikum,

tomorrow is ma'al hijrah 1434
new year of muslim
so as muslim, i wish salam ma'al hijrah to all muslim all around world :)
set urself for another good point
don't bad okay

lately, since taylor swift release her new album
RED
i sing her song
what i see on every song from her all about her ex-boyfriend
like one of her track, i knew you were trouble
i dont know to who she sing too but what can i said
this album was brilliant!
she never disappointing her fans

ohh who that girl ?
well that nina nesbitt
maybe most of you already watch her music video
BOY
i watch her mv yesterday and what can i said
i love her voice
but her face remember me to pixie lott
x)

Well I’m sorry to be honest but this love is no good boy 

I knew you were trouble

assalamualaikum,

so what today what day yea?

ohh Wednesday
so there few day before my birthday and i will turn 19!
brilliant x)
maybe i will make some chocolate cake for myself

so i read on facebook, news that justin bieber split with selena gomez

wonder y
but actually it's good selena split with him
let me tell y
first, he no good boy
second, he will be playboy one day
third, he too rich
and fourth, better left him than he left us
so she make a better choice if she does

okeyh talk about vampire
twilight saga : breaking dawn part 2 will release this week

kristen stewart gaun was awesome on the primere
she look beautiful and kill the show
and also robert pattison
he look hot! x)
maybe other people said they should been split but i said
Hey! they sweet together
i cant wait see them both get married.

trouble.trouble.trouble

why I'm trouble ?
it wasn't me
blow me, i'm really tired giving someone love !
ughh
why.why.why ?
i wish i know he was trouble when i knew him
before i hit on the ground hard
damn he so charming
but pity he "dead" now

for now i think
everyone scared on me
i wish i have sharp teeth like a vampire
even i make a story about vampire
hahaha
sorry
i never watch Twilight so i'm sure it wasn't same
accept the teeth
yeah the teeth
blame me now
not tomorrow x)

You Not Always On The Top

assalamualaikum ... :)

Firstly, sekarang dah masuk first week of November..
rasa macam lambat pun ada dalam bulan November ni :/
Actually it's raining season, so maybe I feel like that..
Well aku masih lagi memikirkan tentang masa depan aku..
Aku ingat nak sambung belaja tahun depan, bukan tahun ni..
Hari tu aku dah apply FIM (Food Institute of Malaysia)

ambik course Pastry and Bakery..
macam biasa ada je alasan aku..
dulu aku belaja dekat UNITI, ambik course Diploma Pendidikan Pra-Sekolah
(Diploma in Pre-School Education)
aku habiskan 1 tahun je..
Puncanya aku homesick..
tempat FIM ni sebenarnya dekat Kelana Jaya, dekat juga dengan rumah aku x)
tengah memikirkan tentang PTPN yang akan menyusul lagi beberapa bulan..
runsing kepala aku sebab aku takut tak lepas untuk pinjam PTPN tue x(
tak apa, lupakan tentang benda FIM & PTPN nie
(menyampah aku!)

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Sekarang cerita tentang seorang wanita yang seperti membuka tudungnya sendiri
(dari mana aku dapat ayat ni daa)
Dia Islam, seorang ibu kepada kepada anak-anaknya..
Mempunyai suami yang tak tahulah alim or tak..
(poor her husband have to carry his wive sin)
 I don't know where the wrong, mungkin ayah dia ajar ajaran tunggang terbalik agaknya..
and maybe what she want to said it's something else but tell something else..
TETAPI!
sekiranya benda itu dah terjadi, you can't turn back
Bak kata pepatah melayu menyebut "Terlajak perahu boleh berundur, Terlajak kata tunggulah Tuhan membalasnya"
Ramai dah menggelarnya dengan bermacam-macam nama
(termasuk ayahnya sekalilah)
until that time, nothing can describe on her anymore..
Nothing..
sebab semuanya dia dah ada..
Bak kata Professor Lupin on Harry Potter and Order of The Phoenix
"Fears make people do terrible thing"
So remember especially for who always make a promise and didn't complete it
Just step a side, give other people do your job
There's lot eyes in here than your thing..

Loving him was RED

assalamualaikum...

4/11 - selesai sudah majlis pertunangan akak ku yang tersayang...
so time majlis tue memang penat arr nak ikutkan..
kaki nie macam dah longgar sebab terlampau sakit..
even catering lambat sampai semuanya berjalan dengan lancar..
nak dijadikan cerita rupanya DAGING KAMBING yang dorang masak untuk tetamu jadi basi that why kena masak untuk kali kedua..
CAMERAMAN cakap gambar siap lagi sebulan!
lama tue nak tunggu..
anyway CONGRATS tue my sisterlah sebab akhirnya hampir menamatkan zaman bujang..
(bila agaknya giliran aku :P)

well bukan tentang tue je..
aku baru leave my CAPITAL N on that day..
so there have 2 history in one day..
memang menangis arr aku malam tue..
nasib baik tak bengkak mata aku..
actually the reason i left him is ...
i don't know why but maybe because i'm tired waiting for him..
i write some song a.k.a lyric for him..
i miss him actually..
seriously..
but he also never try give me chance to make it happen...
i hope he find the better one...

Losing him is blue like I’ve never know

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met

But loving him was red

Jonas Brother - Lame or It really Them?

Today is 2 Nov!

second day of November :)

Nothing special actually but my dad birthday yesterday

We didn't celebrate this year

actually what I'm sad about is I still don't have time to watch PARANORMAL ACTIVITY 4!

hmm sadly because busy for my sister engagement

I read newspaper today

I read part entertainment
I read about Jonas Brother Live in Malaysia 2012

I been heard their coming but didn't know when

It said that JB concert so lame and not so energy..

even I can see from the picture, like their just come for sing not being entertained

or should I said their just come for their self not for their fans
Only 3K fans coming so no wonder right?

I'm sorry to said this but Jonas Brother time is over in Malaysia..

We here already wait for 6 years to their come here
since Hannah Montana be our favorite story in weekend

now Malaysia is GANGNAM STYLE -.-

Hahahaha

Well I've been their fans before especially I like Joe Jonas more than Nick Jonas
never try be fans of Kevin

XDXD

but now there no more Jonas Brother in my mind

there no lovebug again

Paranormal Activity 4! (watch movie in weekend)

Yesterday I celebrate Eid Al-Adha
nothing much or special
I mean I'm celebrate it usual...
well I've been thinking want to make a cake again but since my sister said bored I'm always make a cake so I've been thnkng if I can make something else like cup cake
Full of icing!
yumyum
Well that not gonna happen because I don't know how to make it
huhuhuhu
my niece come sleep at my house..
Tomorrow she will going home back at Seri Kembangan
act it only take a hour to go and comeback from my house because my house and my brother house not so far
hmmm

Oh talk about tomorrow, act I'm planning want to watch PARANORMAL ACTIVITY 4
I saw on commercial at tv
It was awesome, more scary than 1,2 and 3
act I didn't watch the third one because I don't have time
I want to buy the CD but it all Blue Ray and it expensive
hmm poor me
but anyway my sister she already watch it with her boyfriend and she even said this movie was awesome!
It even start from Paranormal Activity 2 the ending part, how the demon kidnap Hunter..

trailer Paranormal Activity 4

Chocolate Cake!

I just make a chocolate cake..
Yesterday I make too but failed
it taste like Lempeng..
but today I made it ^^,
(use other recipe)
I don't know why but since I make rainbow cake I feel like want make a cake
Just cake, nothing else :P
or maybe because my sister engagement on the corner..
Alrite here the pic.

well it's kinda burn on the top but still look good :P

this how it look after i cut the burn site
it's kinda messed little bit
heehehe

this is how it look from side
I wish there have cream or topping chocolate on top
yumyum..

already cut and eat it
It delicious even maybe my mom said little bit tasteless
and burn on the bottom
huhuhuhu
better less sugar ^^

Rainbow Cake!

Last two days I make a first cake ever in my life
it call Butter Rainbow Cake
maybe I just use two color but it was delicious!
(green and maroon)
^o^
here the pic..

I take this picture after it cook
you must think it was chocolate cake rite?
I've been thinking like that too but I forgot that I make a rainbow cake!
XD
here how it look..

maybe I'm not perfect take a picture but I can make a perfect cook cake
^^,
maybe tomorrow I will do Chocolate Cake
first try too ^_^

Today I walk alone

Today was worst day of my life
I don't know how to said
everything like wrong to me
Fight with my boyfriend, strangle wit myself
even just now I cook to my two sister but the end their both didn't ate
Maybe I was bad, so their scared their will bad like me
I think like that
I know who I am in this family
I'm just nobody
Yes, I'm part of this family but after what their did it I think its time to back off
 You guys don't like me right?
Okayh I get it because if one day I die you will feel what I feel!
I don't even need you to be my leg to stand
To be my hand to hold
To be my eyes to cry
and I wish in the next life, you will be my enemy!

Boy So Undetectable

Sometimes boy make a girl messed
I don't know why but that what I fell
I'm kidding with my boyfriends that I will find another guy in joke way but seem he don't accept that
Look, I'm your fiancee and for what I want look for another?
I'm yours baby
God, I'm sound like Jason Mraz
the new boy in 2007
(I don't remember)
You know last week I watch "2 BROKE GIRL" at 8TV
two girl, one poor and one fancy girl
(the fancy one is rich before her dad go to jailed)

I know you guys already watch until season 2 but well at here it little bit late show it
It like Malaysia premier
and who missed the first episode go watch on > YTUBE CHANNEL

but trust me who never watch it, you should watch it

okay back to the point

I wish I was them

Work at night and have own room and house

but that not gonna happen until I was 25 years old

(too old!)

Have own money in own way like dream open a cup cake shop like what their want to do it
I remember the fancy girl brought like big white board with her own mission
Damn, that was awesome!
I think I want start make my own mission and put in on my bedroom wall
where should have more space on it
Yeah I should start it
Who knew maybe I can be more rich than Barrack Obama :P

Love is Something That You Create

This life, there gone and there giving a new life
Life like roller-coaster
it will rewind again and again
Nobody know what it take me
It's good or it's bad
Nobody know what God create our fate
Whether we accept or reject

I learn a lot since I was born
Learn how to accept love and learn how to give love
Even try to know why love make everyone hurt
Some people said love is blind
Love is poison
Love is drug
She said life make love look hard
(Taylor Swift)
Other said love is one of contagious
but to me love is something that you create and give to someone so their can feel
that no matter what happen, I was there with them
Don't ignore people you think who didn't 'exist' infront of you
Let them know that you love them so much before everything is too late

Rest in Peace My Two Beloved Angel

On 15 and 16 of October, I lost my two important person in my life
My aunt and my beloved friends
Their both are the person who always support me from back
but now their gone
Their gone!:(
I don't know what to do anymore
my head, my chest and my version it's all blur
Feel like yesterday I've been talking with my aunt about my problem to her
She always give me advise, not give up
I really miss her :'(
Just few days ago I got talk with my friends
She with the twins...
Her baby..
Two innocence baby...
why must them? Why God?
Why youu have to take them from me?
What did I've done??
I did something wrong??
I wish I could something because all I can do now is pray for them :(:(:(
God, please give us strength to through our destiny..

Watch movie in Weekend

Today I watch movie "Aku Terima Nikahnya"actor by Nora Danish and Adi Putra at Space U8
actually my sister buy three ticket for her, my sister and my mom
Since my mom always give excuse and 50-50 want to watch their decide to call me^^
(yeay!)
It was awesome movie from metrowealth
Romantic, full of love and such a happy ending
(tht what everyone want)
It make me cry and happy after watch the movie
So I suggested who didn't watch the movie yet, you should watch it
especially girlfriend and boyfriend
you will find a love from this movie!
But still wanted to watch "Ngorat" movie

Aaron Aziz! my ex-hubby
:P
I'm just kidding
I don't know I want watch this movie
maybe because their have Aaron Aziz
or maybe cause of the new actor
But actually I watch the trailer and it's funny
Seriously!
Aaron become Jack Sparrow, Shah Rukh Khan, Japaneses Man just want to teach a guy how to tackle a girl
Kinda funny and it was nice
(maybe I just buy a cd)
huhuhu
anyway congrats to Eyra Rahman because create a nice movie to watch in weekend
(u-go-girl!)

(here the trailer of "NGORAT" movie)

Visit Terengganu 2013

I know there a lot people read my blog
and who ever come to my country must familiar name Terengganu
yes this year, government of Terengganu make a promotion about Terengganu
I'm not frm Terengganu but I want promote her because it part of my Malaysia
So what's got in Terengganu?

food? yes there a lot food that you can tasted
There have Nasi Dagang, Singgang Sotong, Ayam Kerutub Terengganu and Telur Itik Masak Lemak
if want some dessert there have Akok, Lepat Pisang, Belebab Pisang, Poli Ubi Kayu, Tok Aji Serban, Lompat Tikam, Mas Jemput, Laksam (my favorite), Rojak Betik, Satar, Ketupat Sotong, Otak-Otak and the famous one Kerepok Lekor
what about the place?
Here we go

Kapas Island at Marang

Kenyir Lake at Tanjong Mentong

Bewah Cave at Hulu Terengganu

Kenyir Lake Herbs Garden

Waterfall Saok

And there many more
Come visit Terengganu 2013 and you gonna love it!
(visit Crystal Mosque and Park Civilization Islamic Terengganu at Kuala Terengganu)

:: more info visit Official Website 2011 ::

Judge Day!

Okay, today 14 Oct 2012(M'sia time) my sister and brother are coming back after a week their vacation at Italy
it was my favorite place
(act Paris)
You know spaghetti, pizza
(yumyum)
it delicious!
I've been ate spaghetti since I was standard five (my buddy intro to me)
I thought it was something stinkng with sme sos tomato with meat on it
but once I eat it, I will ask twice
(never better :P)
I ever try Carbonara too
my sister try make it and with cheese on it
(that I was try last 2 month ^^)

(stomach sound)

Sound great right?
Damn I think I'm gonna be Italian now! :P
Well that not the point
The point is I'm gonna tell them about me with Capital N!
I'm so nervous actually even I've been couple many time but I can feel that this guy will be with me until the end
that for sure
I don't know
I just pray and hope my brother will accept him
(cross finger)

8 Thing That Man Won't Find a Second One!

1. Childish

Within reasonable limits, childish nature of the attraction of a woman in the eyes of men. They feel comforted by your coquettish. But it would not attribute extreme childish and annoying but the attitude of childish fun.

2. Attention

Attitude meaning women make a man feel appreciated and accepted as it is. This attitude was reflected in the mood to forgive, choose the right time to discuss the problem and so on. For example, while men make mistakes, a wise woman does not continue to produce coarse words or accuse bosh instead try to understand the question.

3. Appreciate

Women who appreciate men are women dream man. In contrast to women who like to be treated gently, men prefer appreciated, praised and given sincere belief. Appreciation of women make a man feel proud.

4. Caring Appearance

Men like women who know how to take care of her appearance that always looks beautiful, clean, neat and attractive. Good appearance shows her appreciate her. He will be cheap smile, treat her good, improve the quality of life and give the best of himself. She loves and grateful to him and indirectly exude charm deflective other men also love it. And be sure to wear cover up. Mane man want to give your body the care it become a country in public.

5. Articulate

Men are attracted to women who know how to communicate and be available to chat. Even men favored topic of conversation in contrast to a favorite topic of women, women are able to compensate. He's not just a friend to chat a passive, but can give a good response and opinion. He also knows a good listener, and shifted somewhat serious topic of conversation more interesting. Men also love women who love to joke and witty and can accept a man with good humor and open minded.

6. Clever Mingle and Adapting

Women who know how to mix and adapt have more value in the eyes of men. The woman knows the face of older people and how to deal with people who are younger. When faced with a new environment, these women are not afraid even adaptable. He easily invite anywhere and not awkward either in the city or in the village.

7. Self Respect

Men love women who respect himself as a woman, be polite and have ethics. Women who respect themselves have confidence and know what good and bad treatment by a man against himself. So he knows what he want and want and avoid embarrassment to himself. He would not debase himself and will not let men treat her will.

8. Sympathy and concern

Men prefer women who are generous, caring, sympathy on the plight of the poor, loves children and does not discriminate. Benefits that are reasonable and reflect spontaneous noble heart. There is inner beauty in herself that radiate out to the beautiful & beguiling.

source : illustrasiaku

Pray for our Seniwati Azean Irdawati

Tahun nie sya 19
next year 20
wahhh dah tua rasanya
Tahun ni rse mcam kejap je, tak mcm last year
Well tdi I wastch news
nothing less about politic
but sometimes it fun bcause can see them kutuk-kutuk each other
It make me laugh you know
well that not the point
before the end of news, keluar cerita about Seniwati Azean Irdawati
who always follow her news, you guys must know about her healthy right?
well I bersimpati sangat dengan nasib dia
If I was millionaire I will help her until she well
anyway Kak Yan(maybe I should pronounce aunty) sya doakan aunty cepat sembuh
we all will pray for your healthy ^^,
Aminn

p/s : my mom was her fans when she was younger
^_^

Qalisha [Chapter 1]

Okay, this my new brand story
actually like mini novel
still in process
I call it QALISHA
got 3 character in this story
so I hope you enjoy it ^^,
Happy Evening everyone...

        Kesejukan dingin daripada penghawa dingin di dalam kedai E&S Café House tidak sedikit pun menghalang Qalisha Rose Farro terus mengira untung rugi perniagaan miliknya. Tangannya terus-terusan menekan punat kalkulator yang berada disebelahnya sambil menulis di atas kertas putih yang telah berselerak. Bunyi loceng pintu di kedai berbunyi. Seorang gadis menutup payung miliknya lalu diletakkan di tempat khas. Dia membuka jaket dan di libasnya. Hujan yang lebat mulai renyai-renyai menyebabkan suasana bandar Ichigan di selubungi bunyi cengkerik. Dia melihat Qalisha lalu mengerling jam di tangannya.

Tak balik lagi? bisik kecil hatinya.

        "Oi mak cik! Bila nak balik?" tanya Selena mengetuk kuat meja yang di duduki oleh Qalisha.

Qalisha menjeling ke arah Selena yang sedang berdiri di hadapannya. "Amboi, sejak bila I kawin dengan Uncle you?" perli Qalisha dengan soalan yang di ajukan oleh Selena.
Selena Isabella Groger merupakan kawan baiknya yang paling rapat. Mereka berdua berkenalan di laman sesawang di mana Qalisha ketika itu masih lagi di rumah anak-anak yatim. Setahun kemudian, teman lelaki Selena, iaitu, Jeremy Vladimir Farro telah mengambil dia menjadi adik angkatnya dan bertukar nama keluarga.

"Orang tanya je, main-mainkan kita plak. Ni, abang you suruh you balik".

Qalisha terdiam lalu meneruskan perkiraan tanpa mempedulikan Selena. "Qas, you dengar tak apa yang I cakap nie?" tanyanya lagi sekali. Qas merupakan nama timangan yang diberikan oleh Selena.

"Hmm, kalau I rasa nak balik I baliklah. Lagipun kan I tengah sibuk nie?" katanya tanpa memandang Selena.

Selena menghela nafas panjang. Bunyi nafasnya menyebabkan Qalisha tersentak. Dia memandang Selena tetapi Selena sudah pun bangun dari tempat duduknya. Matanya mencari Selena yang sedang mengambil makanan dari fridge.

"Kalau orang nasihat nanti dikatakan busy body, kalau tak nasihatkan tue orang rumah kan sane tue yang akan berleter 24 hours non-stop. Siapa yang kena, ini gadis yang tak berdosa ini yang kena", katanya sambil menunjukkan aksi seperti sakit dada.

Qalisha mengangkat keningnya. Ada-ada sahaja kembar tak seiras dia ini. Qalisha bingkas bangun lalu menutup buku kira-kiranya.

"Fine, kita balik okay?" katanya lalu mengambil beg yang di simpan di dalam almari kecil.

Selena yang terpinga-pinga melihat Qalisha sudah mahu angkat kaki berlari menuju ke arahnya.

"Huh, betul ke?" tanyanya kembali.

"Betullah, you ingat I main-main ke?" jawapnya sambil mengunci machine duit. Qalisha menghidupkan sistem penggera yang bersebelahan dengan machine duit.

"Habis kek yang I baru ambik nie?"

"Tinggalkan je atas meja tue. Dah jom". Dia menarik lengan Selena setelah kawan baiknya meletakkan piring kecil di atas meja.

Kedai E&S Café House mulai gelap. Selena dan Qalisha menaiki kereta masing-masing. Hujan yang sebentar tadi renyai-renyai sudah berhenti, bagaikan mengetahui bahawa adik kesayangan Jeremy akan pulang ke rumah.

Jeremy mundar mandir menanti ketibaan adiknya. Mesej yang baru diterima oleh Selena membuatnya rasa gembira namun bercampur rasa bersalah. Kejadian tempoh hari memang tidak boleh dilupakan. Kejadian di mana Jeremy menumbuk teman lelaki Qalisha. Asalnya dia suka adiknya berkawan dengan lelaki itu namun banyak cerita negatif yang keluar menyebabkan Jeremy membuat keputusan untuk menjauhkan Qalisha dari lelaki buaya darat itu!

Bunyi kereta memasuki perkarangan rumah. Jeremy terus berlari ke muka pintu untuk menyambut puteri kesayangannya. Qalisha yang terkejut akibat Jeremy berdiri di muka pintu hanya mampu menyembunyikan perasaan. Malas mahu dilayan.

"Angel, you already ate? If not, I already make a dinner. You eat okay", tanya Jeremy kepada adiknya.

Qalisha mengangkat tangan tanda sekejap lagi. Jawapan yang diberikan oleh Qalisha merisaukan Jeremy. Selena yang baru masuk di sergah oleh Jeremy.

"I ingat dia dah okay? Kenapa macam tak okay?" tanyanya tanpa mengucap selamat kepada Selena.

Selena mengerling ke arah Jeremy lalu duduk di sofa. Dia mengambil remote control lalu menekan butang on.

"Dia masih marah lagi dengan you. Baby, I think you should said apologize to her", cadang Selena.

Jeremy mengerutkan dahinya. "Minta maaf? Untuk apa? I'm saving her from that playboy! Qalisha yang patut mintak maaf dengan I", kata Jeremy dengan suara yang meninggi.

Qalisha keluar semula dari biliknya. Dia ingin ke dapur untuk menghilangkan rasa dahaga di tekaknya namun langkahnya mati apabila mendengar perbualan abangnya dengan Selena.

"Boleh tak you perlahankan suara you. Kalau adik you dengar macam mana, lagi dia kecik hati. Look, you attack her that night sedangkan mereka berdua just pergi untuk makan malam. You're the one should be blame not them!" kata Selena.

Jeremy terpinga-pinga mendengar kata-kata Selena. "Maknanya dorang tak buat apa-apalah?"

"Yes Mr. Jeremy. Qas sendiri yang bagi tahu I. Itulah lain kali tanya, ini tidak, main serang sesuka hati dia je", tambah Selena lagi.

Jeremy bersandar di sebelah Selena. Dia mendengus lalu mengaru kepalanya yang tidak gatal. Memang sikapnya suka menuduh tanpa menyiasat perkara sebenar tapi dia bukan sengaja. Dia hanya mahu melindungi adiknya dari buaya darat itu. Qalisha yang mendengar hanya tersengih mendengar perbualan mereka. Dia masuk semula ke bilik.

Qalisha menelefon teman lelakinya untuk memberitahu apa yang berlaku namun tidak dijawap. Dia mula hilang mood setelah dicubanya banyak kali. Pintu biliknya diketuk.

"Adik, boleh abang masuk?" tanya Jeremy. Qalisha hanya memandang sayu ke arah abangnya. Jeremy masuk lalu duduk di katil.

"Adik okay tak? Something happening?" tanyanya lagi. Qalisha hanya menggeleng.

"Apa yang abang nak? Qas nak tidur, Qas penat", kata Qalisha tanpa memandang tepat ke arah abangnya. Dia cuba menyembunyikan air mata yang hampir tertumpah.

"Abang nak mintak maaf sebab serang Qas hari tu. Abang tahu yang sepatutnya abang tanya Qas, tapi sikap abang tuduh tanpa siasat menjadi-jadi. Abang cuma nak lindungi Qas", terang Jeremy.

"Qas faham cuma Qas nak tanya satu je. Kenapa abang tak boleh nak percayakan Qas? Qas tahu yang Qas hanya adik angkat abang tapi kenapa susah abang nak bagi kepercayaan tue dekat Qas? Atau sebab abang hanya pura-pura sayangkan Qas dan hanya kasihankan orang macam Qas ni?" tanyanya bertumbi-tumbi. Air matanya yang ditahan tiba-tiba mengalir deras.

Jeremy tersentak dengan setiap soalan yang dituju kepadanya. Dia bingkas bangun lalu memeluk adik kesayangannya.

"Qas, tolong jangan cakap macam tue. Qas adik abang dan selamanya menjadi abang. Tiada istilah adik angkat dalam diri Qas untuk abang. Tolong jangan cakap macam tue lagi", kata Jeremy cuba memujuk adiknya.

Hatinya bagaikan dihiris apabila melihat air mata Qalisha membasahi pipinya. Dia tidak sanggup melihat Qalisha menangis. Kalau boleh biarlah dia mati demi adik dan kekasihnya. Malam itu, tiada kata-kata lagi dapat dikeluarkan daripada mereka berdua. Hanya tangisan yang menemani mereka berdua.

Qalisha tersedar dari tidurnya. Jeremy yang menemaninya malam tadi sudah pergi ke cafe. Dia bingkas bangun lalu menuju ke bilik air. Setelah mandi, Qalisha mengenakan skinny kelabu dan baju lengan panjang berwarna putih yang mendedahkan bahunya. Singlet yang dipakainya di dalam dibetulkan. Dia mengikat rambutnya ke atas. Setelah siap dia bergegas keluar. Dilihat Selena sedang bersarapan di meja makan.

"Morning", ucapnya sambil mengambil air di dalam fridge. Selena tersenyum melihat Qalisha yang sudah bersiap.

"Lawanya, nak pergi mana?" tanya Selena.

"Nak pergi cafelah takkan nak pergi dating. Abang dah pergi cafe?" tanyanya pula. Selena hanya mengangguk.

"Semalam abang minta maaf". Mahu terkeluar balik apa yang di makan oleh Selena setelah mendengar apa yang dikatakan oleh Qalisha.

"Seriously? Wahh you dah pecah rekod abang you. Kena celebrate ni", kata Selena sambil tertawa. Qalisha turut tergelak. Telefon Qalisha berbunyi. Dia melihat nama Adam tertera di skrinnya. Dia menekan butang silent lalu menyimpan kembali telefonnya ke dalam beg bimbitnya.

"Kenapa tak jawap?" tanya Selena. Qalisha menghabiskan baki air yang dituangnya sebentar tadi.

"Buaya darat call", jawapnya lalu bangun meletakkan cawan di sinki.

Adam Scotheld mendial nombor Qalisha namun hampa tidak dijawap. 8 missed call daripada Qalisha malam tadi membuatnya terkejut. Ketidaksedarannya akan panggilan dari Qalisha akibat tertidur di studio menyebabkan dia menjadi rasa bersalah. Xavi yang melihat perangai adiknya hanya terus memetik gitar akustik di tangannya.

"Adam, kau call siapa?" tanya Xavi apabila rimas melihat adiknya bangun dan duduk di tempat yang sama.

Adam tidak mempedulikan soalan abangnya. Dia terus menelefon Qalisha tanpa henti. Elyan, pengurus kumpulan The Homesless yang masuk juga hairan dengan perangai Adam.

"Kenapa dengan Adam? Macam cacing kepanasan je aku tengok dia", tanya Elyan kepada Xavi. Xavi hanya menggelengkan kepala.

"Oh minggu depan korang ada temu ramah dengan sebuah stesen, pukul 2. Bagi tahu yang lain okay", pesannya kepada Xavi sebelum keluar semula.

Adam menghempaskan dirinya disebelah Xavi. Dia menghembuskan nafasnya. Rasa mahu sahaja dia membaling telefonnya ke dinding apabila satu pangilannya tidak dijawap oleh Qalisha. Dia menjerit.

"Apa guna ada kekasih kalau macam ini dia layan aku!" bentak Adam. Kepalanya seperti mahu pecah apabila memikirkan tentang Qalisha. Xavi memegang bahu Adam lalu berbisik.

"Apa kata kau pergi berjumpa dengan dia. Habis cerita", cadang Xavi. Adam memandang Xavi tapi memandang semula telefonnya. Cadangan daripada abangnya berligar di fikirannya. Dia mendengus.

Kesha new brand song!

Do you already listen new KE$HA song?
DIE YOUNG single from her before her next album coming up this December.
before this she was my #1 singer that I love
because I feel like my brain and her brain same!
(ridiculous :P)
Like something interact me to be her fans
I'm sure you will agree what I'm saying
She sexy, wild and the most like beard
you know the last song from her
YOUR LOVE IS MY DRUG
her music kinda crazy and I didn't get it what she try to said on the video
even my brain if listen that song remember me to my crush
(:P)
ever thinking if I was a guy I will make her become my second bitch!
but ANYWAY shes come back and I'm so happy
(shoosh WATIC hello KE$HA)

Strong Journey, Ending Happiness

it's long I didn't update anything...
so many thing hppen until I didn't realize that 2012 almost the end..
(I wish December won't come)
right now I'm still decide what the best for me
BUT seem everything look unexpected..
maybe I'm not like other people but why have to be somthing tht finally yourself unhappy about it..
right now I'm not single..
thre a guy love me so much..
I don't knw hw much it but I love him too...
(love in the air!)
almost a week and I hope it will hppy end not sad end anymore
if not mybe I will be lesbo!
wait LESBO?!
ewww that was disgusting think ever!
never mind
world not the end yet ^^,

I Never Be What You Want

Today I'm feeling unhappy
I feel like this world getting small
It make me can't breath
Sometimes I've been thinking if I make a stupid decision
Like runaway from home
Stay at stranger place
with stranger people
You know this life we have only one life
People who rich will travel all over the world and tell the same story with the same situation
People who poor will think the past and regret the future
like me, I can think about the fucking future
but never regret about the past
Yes, sometimes I wish I can turn back everything
You know turn back start from we childhood
and start that day we promise to our self that we not gonna be that way
Be good boy/girl
even become useful person not useless !
Get A+ in exam and admitted to the university
How it will be the best day of our life
but it not gonna be happen
Just be yourself even you are useless person !

You're Gone [own lyric]

This another lyric from me
It call 'You're Gone'
what you think ?

Verse 1
I wake up 3 am again
Hoping your arm around my neck
Alone in this bed again
24/7 days away

Answer still left me behind

Why don’t you get off my head
Just get off from my bed

Chorus
You say you love me forever
In your heart only stick one name
Now you’re gone(2x)

I keep praying to hallelujah
Our love will last forever
Now you’re gone(2x)

Verse 2
You held my hand and wipe my tears
You though you kiss me will make me high
Don’t you know I’m not girl that give away
I’m better off alone

Why don’t you get off my head
Just get off from my bed

Bridge
Tell me why I can’t let you go
Look back the pieces we left behind
Did I miss something?

The Secret [Chapter Two – Two of Sides]

Suasana Istana Vamprenacht tidak pernah berubah. Setiap sudut ada sahaja bunyi, termasuk vampire berlatih menggunakan pedang mahupun kuasa masing-masing. Joanna keluar dari bilik air selepas hampir dua jam berendam. Itulah salah satu cara dia menghilangkan tekanan. Walaupun sudah hampir seminggu kejadian tersebut berlaku namun bayangan terhadap kejadian tempoh hari masih berligar di fikirannya. Dia hanya mengenakan t-shirt dan seluar jeans biru tua. Mengikat rambutnya yang hanya paras bahu. Setelah siap, Joanna keluar daripada biliknya. Dilihat Xavier berada di luar biliknya.

        “Xavier?"

        "Good morning princess. Today is my duty to take care of you".

       "Oh yes, good morning too".

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I like to See You Around

Sometimes I wish I wasn't exist
I can't even control myself
My friends just text me, why I put off my semester to next year ?
I said coz I have mental problem
I can't continue
I can't catch up
I don't want their sad or give burden to take care of me
I'm just shit girl
Why still have breath in my body?
To who I should live?
No one
no one !!!!!
I just want he at here
Comfort me
I really need him, right now
I ... I just can't forget you
Can you come here
Really here
not near
Please ?
I know it won't be happen
He already have "beautiful" life
I don't want disturb him anymore
No more !

My Stress Out of Control !

Do you ever feel stress ?
Everyone stress right
but if your stress already out of control ?
All you feel is you want dead
Nothing else but only dead
Then when every ask "what's wrong" you just shake your head and said "nothing"
but when you turn around you said "everything!"
That's what I feel
No one understand me
No one care about me
If true what other people said I'm lucky have family like this
I think their blind
One more word, I can kill myself
I try over and over again
but nothing's work
Today I put off my semester to next year
Mean I'm not gonna be with my old friends
It sux seriously but I have horrible stress problem
I can't study anymore
My head it's too hurt
:(

I can't take your Complicated and Run Around

Do you already heard song Blue from Big Bang ?
No ??
Why you not yet
It was awesome song
No is daebak !!!
hahaha
You know I don't really care about K-POP
because to me it's all korean song and I'm sure I can't sing their song
but after heard Alone by CN Blue I'm become their fans
even I have to sing while read their lyric but I know their song full of melody
Like Blue by Big Bang
I have one or two song in my phone
but after this song come out I've become addicted
I don't know why

I love to see TOP
god he handsome
<3<3<3<3
hahaha
I'm completely already crazy !!
before this Sum 41
then Avril Lavigne
after that Tokio Hotel
and then We Are The In Crowd
now Big Bang !!
daebak !!!
This is the lyric and MV Blue
;)

Gyeouri gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo
Geurium soge mami meongdeureotjyo

(i’m singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i’m singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh

Gateun haneul dareun got neowana wiheomhanikka
Neoegeseo ddeonajuneun geoya
Nimiran geuljae jeomhana bigeobhajiman
Naega motna sumneun geoya
Janinhan ibyeoreun sarangui mallo
Geu eoddeon maldo wiro dwel suneun eobtdago
Ama nae insaengui majimak mello
Magi naeryeo-oneyo ije

Tae-eonaseo neol mannago jugeul mankeum saranghago
Parake muldeureo sirin nae maeum
Nuneul gamado neol neukkil su eobtjanha

Gyeouri gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo
Geurium soge mami meongdeureotjyo

(i’m singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i’m singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh

Simjangi meojeun geot man gata jeonjaengi ggeutnago
Geu gose eoreo buteun neowana
Nae meorissok saegyeojin trauma i nunmul mareumyeon
Chokchokhi gieokhari nae sarang
Gweropjido oeropjido anha haengbogeun da honjatmal
Geu isange bokjaphan geon mot chama
Daesurobji amureojido anha
Byeolsueobtneun banghwang saramdeureun watda ganda

Tae-eonaseo neol mannago jugeul mankeum saranghago
Parake muldeureo sirin nae maeum
Neoneun ddeonado nan geudaero itjanha

Gyeouri gago bomi chajaojyo urin sideulgo
Geurium soge mami meongdeureotjyo

Oneuldo paran jeo dalbicharae-e na hollo
Jami deulgetjyo
Ggumsogeseodo nan geudaereul chaja
Hemaeimyeo i noraereul bulleoyo

(i’m singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i’m singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh
(i’m singing my blues)
Paran nunmure paran seulpeume gildeullyeojyeo
(i’m singing my blues)
Ddeungureume nallyeobonaen sarang oh oh